My Favorites Happy Depressed Movies

So this is five movies about depressed people that I think would inspire you or maybe can makes you think how it feels like to be one of them, the introvert-and-wallflower kinds.  I mean, we also live, but it's feels like we don't particularly lived you know? Yeah, that kind of feels.

One thing you should know that, people whether they're introvert or not, are also people.

Yesterday, I went to many countries~

So, yesterday~ all my troubles seemed so far away~ oops, okay...no, no i’m not gonna ‘sing’ the beatles song. :p

Soooooo, yesterday i was taking a review class on my course, because i have one absent lately for my college exam. And if i want to pass to the next level i must understand what i’ve missed before.

After finishing with some conjunctions and discussing a number of a kind english preparation test that my classmate brought. We shared about other peoples' habits and what actually strangers think of them. Well, actually it started because my teacher, Ms. Elry want to move out from her guesthouse into somewhere in Cempaka Putih.

She wants to move out because there’s many street people (or simply said as alay lah ya bowk) teasing her, like if she want to hang out with them and she also didn’t have nice relationship with her homemate because they’re so dirty.

From the chit-chat we started to share what kind of ‘bule’ people actually do in Indonesia. (well, she shared so many things actually)

June 13th 2013 : just a thought about art._. [mindtalking]

actually, i should study by myself for the college exams…but i wanted to write just a thought about this._.

okay, so i watched this vid » I AM ART by stodoe

Over Your Dead Body

Over Your Dead Body 

 I’m drowning through the unpleasant blood. 

Drinking the uncolored liquid. 

The tastes of the pain similar to holding your own grave. 

But, I can’t feel it. 

You’re already on the ground, screaming through the glass. 

While I’m still under the water. Drowning. 

Meaning inside your heart can’t be replaced by my own sincere. 

We can’t hold the time back. 

 Cause our reality can be the mean. 

Nan 28/02/2013

#curcol : Jurusan Kuliah & PTN (lagi?)

sekarang bulan apa ya? oh, januari. kurang dari 3 bulan lagi bakalan UN(lagi). terus yang bisa ikutan snmptn, bakalan ujian di sekitar bulan april. sisanya bisa ikutan sbmptn dengan kuota masuk 30% di bulan mei / juni.

kind of an endless words. [mindtalking]

"Sukses itu bukan diukur dari jabatan, uang / kekayaan dan kekuasaan kalian 5 / 10 tahun mendatang, tapi dari seberapa besar pengaruh / kontribusi yang kalian berikan kepada orang lain. Kalau seandainya kalian nanti diberi rezeki yang berlimpah, gunakanlah itu untuk membantu orang lain." - Pak Budi, Cek Young.

where should i go? [monologue] [mindtalking]

천국.

What we live for? [mindtalking]

what we live for? RELIGION? GOD? MONEY? PARENTS? DREAMS? KNOWLEDGE? PEOPLE? LOVERS? or for yourself?

i still can't find the reason for living in this human-seems-knows-everything world. 

[mindtalking]

Is it a genetical character or gift? [mindtalking]

Well, dunno where should i start first, but talking about your character, is it a genetical character from your parents or a gift?

Secara biologis, beberapa sifat yang dimiliki orang tua emang nurun ke anaknya, tapi gue rasa gak semuanya deh ya._. dan kayanya, juga tergantung gen si ortunya lebih kuat yang mana ‘_’

For example, gen keturunan nyokap lo itu lebih kuat di fisik yang berhubungan dengan bentuk mata belo dan kulit putih ya otomatis 99% bentuk mata belo dan kulit putih yang ada di elo sekarang keturunan nyokap lo.

Tapi, ternyata gen bokap lo lebih kuat dalam sifat yang ada di dalam diri lo, yaa jadinya luar mirip nyokap, dalem mirip bokap.

Nah hal kaya gini juga berlaku sama dengan para hewan, tapi kan hewan gak punya akal, itu sebabnya sifat mereka kemungkinan besar bakalan sama dengan induknya.

Tapi, kita bukan hewan, dan manusia punya akal. Pertanyaannya, apakah akal atau cara berfikir serta kemampuan yang kita miliki itu merupakan ‘pemberian’ dari Allah atau itu cuman efek dari ‘campuran gen’ bawaan dari orang tua kita?